GED Over April 17, 2008

Yay! I took it. I get my results in 2-4 weeks, and my diploma after that. I am so tired. After the test, Mom took me out to China King. She’d won a free meal, and as a stipulation, we had to watch a program on fire safety. I am terrified of house fires. And home invaders. And everything else. So on top of the test I’m now scared of house fires and realize that I won’t be able to afford the awesome fire prevention alarms the man is going to pitch to be tomorrow, for in my safety fervor I made an appointment for 11 AM. With Flylady, my house is clean enough, besides the fact that my entertainment center is strewn across the floor connected by a motley assortment of cords in a definitely unsafe manner. My fire alarms, which are only 55.8% accurate anyway, apparently, are sitting in the kitchen, disabled and waiting for new batteries. I’m paranoid. More than usual. Pray for me, that I get thru the night without being singed or losing my sanity. -Taria

P. S. A battery, even a dead one, will ignite steel wool if both contact points touch it. Get those loose batteries out of drawers and ziploc before disposing them!

This Week April 4, 2008

I am tired. It’s not like I had a ton to do this week, but what I did have to do took its toll more than it should have. I’m happy, tho, and hopeful. I’m on Day 5 of Flylady, and tomorrow I learn about hotspots. Emotionally, this system has been very revealing to me about just how much my house and other things stress me out and affect my life. I’m learning a lot about myself and just how much I bury on a regular basis. I’m also learning about why I overeat, and how to change. I am so resistant to change sometimes and being told what to do, no matter how kindly, but this system is very slowly-babystepping-changing my life.

There are only two negative side effects, short term. The first is, I’ve been a bit more stressed about changing as well as the aforementioned realization about how much things really bother me, and that’s caused some internal anger and external hissy fits. Plus, I don’t like and it’s painful to confront these issues.

Secondly, I’ve used the system to negate what I was already doing before, such as working on the house and studying. I’ve spent most of my time goofing off. The upcoming GED is less than two weeks away now, and has me a little nervous, as do what I want/need to do afterwards: get a job.

Went to the OBGYN this week- second time ever, since 16 mos ago. My menstrual cycles were always irregular, except for Dec ’06 – Nov ’07, when I was on birth control. The doctor thinks I might have polycystic ovary syndrome, meaning I develop an egg each month, but many months my body doesn’t get a strong enough hormonal signal to release it. I read up on it, it’s strongly related to obesity, making it yet another incentive to work on some body clutter. For regular cycles, birth control is the easiest way. When Chris and I start trying to have kids, she can give me something to kick-start my system. I was supposed to get the results of the blood test today, but I wasn’t home to see if they called, and they didn’t call my cell. I’d really like to get an answering machine. I got my “happygram” today, no sign of cancerous cells. That’s always good. =)

Will try to blog more -Taria

Check Out This Site April 3, 2008

Mama made an awesome discovery the other day- someone told her about Flylady.net. I went to it, I read it, it made sense. I am on Day 4, learning how to get off my Franny.

I’m sorry it’s been awhile, and I will write a longer post later. In the mean time, check out the website! -Taria