I am tired. It’s not like I had a ton to do this week, but what I did have to do took its toll more than it should have. I’m happy, tho, and hopeful. I’m on Day 5 of Flylady, and tomorrow I learn about hotspots. Emotionally, this system has been very revealing to me about just how much my house and other things stress me out and affect my life. I’m learning a lot about myself and just how much I bury on a regular basis. I’m also learning about why I overeat, and how to change. I am so resistant to change sometimes and being told what to do, no matter how kindly, but this system is very slowly-babystepping-changing my life.
There are only two negative side effects, short term. The first is, I’ve been a bit more stressed about changing as well as the aforementioned realization about how much things really bother me, and that’s caused some internal anger and external hissy fits. Plus, I don’t like and it’s painful to confront these issues.
Secondly, I’ve used the system to negate what I was already doing before, such as working on the house and studying. I’ve spent most of my time goofing off. The upcoming GED is less than two weeks away now, and has me a little nervous, as do what I want/need to do afterwards: get a job.
Went to the OBGYN this week- second time ever, since 16 mos ago. My menstrual cycles were always irregular, except for Dec ’06 – Nov ’07, when I was on birth control. The doctor thinks I might have polycystic ovary syndrome, meaning I develop an egg each month, but many months my body doesn’t get a strong enough hormonal signal to release it. I read up on it, it’s strongly related to obesity, making it yet another incentive to work on some body clutter. For regular cycles, birth control is the easiest way. When Chris and I start trying to have kids, she can give me something to kick-start my system. I was supposed to get the results of the blood test today, but I wasn’t home to see if they called, and they didn’t call my cell. I’d really like to get an answering machine. I got my “happygram” today, no sign of cancerous cells. That’s always good. =)
Will try to blog more -Taria
I love the way you write.
Hang in there.
I’m up and dressed but I can’t find my shoes.
~Mom
I like the way you refer to “body clutter”.
I checked out the Flylady site a few days back when I read this post initially and it sounds like something I should try too. CHAOS describes me completely!
I really just wanted to say BEST OF LUCK on the GED. I know you’ll do well. Keep us posted!
Love you!